I don’t know if I’m even doing the right thing by posting this here but I think I just need some reassurance that I’m not on some sort of self pity trip so if you think I am please keep your thoughts to yourself because I really don’t need to know them. I have been suffering severe epigastric pain for about eleven months now. I think I’ve had every investigation under the sun both as in and outpatient and we thought the gastroenterologist had diagnosed chronic pancreatitis because she said she’d leave the pain relief to the gp and would only still see me because of the weight loss (over 40kg since February) but I asked the gp today to refer me to the pain clinic and he said that was for the gastroenterologist to decide. Over the last few visits to him he has succeeded in making me feel like I’m a nobody, totally selfish and that the only person that should matter is my husband because of what I’m putting him through to the point where if I feel upset at all I can’t show it until my husband is sleeping at night as I’ no right to upset him any further. I don’t know who I can speak to who won’t judge me or just section me again. The same gp was responsible for making myself and my family believe I had dementia and won’t admit it or apologise. We’re in the process of changing gp’s but there are only one or two left in the practice we can ?trust. What happens after that? I know the majority of you are probably in the USA but we are in Scotland and the nhs isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. I am now ashamed to admit I once worked for the nhs as it’s not fit for purpose thanks to the uk tory government. I just want answers as I sit here in tears because the pain is so bad despite another increase in Morphine. Can anyone come up with any rational solutions because I would be extremely grateful?