I had an early morning dream. I was in a new home with my husband. I ran up to him to hold him crying and saying "You're alive, you're alive and I can hold you." That's when I woke up and I was in our old home and alone and lonely. There will be no picnics or fireworks watching for me. I could find some place to go and watch fireworks, but you are still alone. And it hurts so much.