It does make one so anxious to be in diagnostic Limbo. When I first heard Multiple Myeloma mentioned as a possibility I consulted with Dr Google while I was waiting to get a hemotology/oncology appointment. Dr Google is big on worst case scenarios, it seems. That increased my anxiety a lot and I felt so lousy. I had trouble sleeping and lost 10 pounds before my first appointment.
I have, thankfully, an excellent HEM/Onc doc who spent lots of time explaining my bloodwork, what was good and what they would watch. I asked lots of questions and he was quite patient with me.
Once I had more balanced information I calmed down and immediately felt better.
Try to relax and do the things you love. I am wishing you the best possible outcome from your diagnostic workup.