@wolfbauer My heart breaks for you today. I know those days when I’m just “leveled”, I am so down and depressed, all the negative emotions flood in. I think sometimes it’s appropriate to power through but sometimes you need to allow yourself the time to rest. Sounds like you have a lot of talent with photography and writing. Have you considered opening an Etsy shop and/or Fiverr account to sell some of your art, photography or writing services? On Fiverr you can offer resume writing services, drawings, really all sorts of things. It might be an opportunity to bring in some money while you search for the right remote opportunity. Are you still working with your doctors on controlling your symptoms? Maybe it’s time to consider a second opinion on a treatment plan. Your doctor should be able to complete SSDI paperwork for you to be approved for disability, perhaps try applying again. I know right now all of that is overwhelming as the pain and sickness is consuming you. Hang in there, “this too shall pass”. Please be sure to reach out to your resources for support. If you need help finding resources for anything specific, let me know, I’d be happy to help.