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Pacer,
For my doctorate, I cannot, and unless I can find a Physics Course WITH Lab that is available online and accepted by URI, I won't be able to finish my Biological Sciences B.S. either. I've been taking a free coding course through edX via Harvard and MIT for coding, but have just been wiped. Living at home, I'm torn between trying to get better and get in a place where I can be stable, and also be amenable to my parents and get a job and try to move out. I have been applying like crazy, had several calls and phone interviews this week, and as a result, I haven't slept or kept food down the last three days or nights at all. I'm really struggling right now and in a lot of pain. If I have a good day mentally where I can motivate and do something, as long as I'm going, I'm good, but if I try to eat, I'm so wired, even with all the meds, nothing stays down. I'm supposed to have an interview after 1pm today, posssibly zoom, and there's no way I'll even be able to move to simply shower I'm doing so poorly. I don't know what I'm thinking sometimes, and without access to a therapist or psychiatrist... it makes things so much worse. Plus I'm 35 being treated like a 13 year old all over again. It's a living hell. Sorry for venting, but I got through the day doing what I could, and when that was over and I couldn't focus or do chores or even be in a tolerant mood to talk to people, everything just crashed. I feel like this is going to be my life for as long as I am alive, and it's hell right now. Because my parents picked up my RXs at CVS because I wasn't feeling well, and looked at all the info and talked to people about the meds (that I've been on for years), my dad took the battery out of my car for two months. It's finally back in, but only if I give him my key when he goes to bed because he thinks the meds are going to make me want to go out and drive. It's surreal! I feel like I'm regressing, I have no motivation to do anything except avoid feeling awful, and when I do get a spark, it's often aimed at a method to get out of my current living situation/get a job. I'm just lost.
Thank you for listening, I'd like to hear about you too, I'm sorry I'm just wiped, please message again if you'd like!