Hi Melissa, you must have a real tough time having to deal with 4 children, especially having 2 with disabilities. I don't have kids, never could have them. I think it may be God's way of stopping the trail of abuse. I would hate to think that if I'd had kids, I could have passed it on. I've been praying every night about my nightmares, specifically, they have lessened but they have just shifted to different topics, however, still haunting. Are you receiving any kind of treatment? When I lived in Canada I had a wonderful doctor that I worked with. As you may know we don't have to pay for any kind of health care, it's covered with the taxes we pay. But now that I'm in the U.S. I have no support. None. My husband tries to be supportive, but he doesn't get it. So, the anxiety keeps growing, and growing...... please write again, maybe we can be of support to each other. Carolyn