Good to read your input Sally. It does seem that many of us were living a healthier than usual lifestyle and I went through a period of searching for alternative treatment that would at least put this in remission. I do think this is a long journey and I will go through many moods with it. At this point I try to focus on appreciating every day. In a sense, I am lucky to have this diagnosis so early. I have years (hopefully) to remember, everything is impermanent. My mantra is accept, adjust (do what you can to help yourself) and repeat (know you'll be at this cycle again). The big reminder is the spleen of course, impossible to ignore, but I take great solace that I do not view this as a tumor. This valiant organ is struggling against the odds every day to help me, doing it's best. Having watched my father die of esophageal cancer, I know full well the horrors tumors can present. A compassionate view of my spleen helps me diminish the fear a bit. The encouragement and inspiration I read here is definitely helpful! Thanks for sharing.