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Lonely and Just want to talk with virtual friends here
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I have just "found" this group and have finished reading all the posts. At this time of my life, I am 87 years old, I am alone and lonely. I lost my husband of 59 years and then I had to have a complete hip replacement. As if all this wasn't enough, I have become estranged from my youngest son. I am going through all of this alone. I have always had a tough time making friends. I do try to reach out but nothing ever comes of it. Even when I go to groups, I am not made to feel especially welcome. As you can imagine, this makes me feel that there is something wrong with me, but I don't know what it is. I now find that it is easier just to be alone than feel the hurt when you are rejected. Physically, except for recovering from the hip, I seem to be okay. I only have to take medication for high blood pressure. Since my husband's death, I have lost weight, which in my case is good. No one knows how much longer you will live, but at 87 it cannot be much longer. I did have one episode where I thought about ending it all, but I called the suicide hotline and now I know for sure it will not happen again. However the loneliness and the aloneness will always be with me.
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Hi I can always want a friend if you want me. I can talk on the phone better than text. If I can I always want to help. Cila
I'm 80 and recently lost my husband. We would have been married 60 years yesterday. I took care of him with Parkinson's, he died and then I developed breast cancer. Chemo caused peripheral neuropathy and now I can't drive. I have a great family, though. I live alone on 22 acres in California in wine country.
I feel happy now. I'd be glad to communicate with you.
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That is so sad. And it's also what I fear will happen to me.
I have never been married but had a relationship with someone I'd rather not think about too much anymore. Therapy helps. It would have been so wonderful, I think, to have a loving relationship. That's what I looked forward to when I was young anyway!
You write that when you go to groups you don't feel they make you feel welcome. Why is that, is it because you expect others to make you feel good in the group, being a natural wall flower maybe? Or is it because you don't feel you belong?
When I went to groups I would usually end up alone close to the wall, or I would sit somewhere and start drawing, or look around. I was hardly ever spoken to. The strange thing is that this also happened during Summer holidays: I would usually go out alone and take a book or sketching pad, and have a drink on my own. Some guys would usually be interested but I was not into what they were into 😀 I must say that I actually had some friends, come to think of it, in that past: guys who were simply nice and with whom I corresponded after that Summer holiday, for years! But then life happened and we lost track of one another. I do remember them fondly though.
It's sad that you lost contact with your youngest son. Do you have other children? I always wanted to have children, I never had them, sadly.