There you are, was hoping I had not scared you off with my last post. Yes I
have been the optimistic one here as well. I did some reflection on
beneficial suffering, a topic you can Google. It's what you have described
here, the pain and anguish of anticipation brings you closer to God. I feel
blessed because I am able to still function with little pain after 16
chemo. The diagnosis is still scary but there seems to be many options I
read about so staying positive and taking the lead to get to mayo is part
of my optimism and belief I can get to remission and even a cure..thanks
for your response. Headed for a weekend retreat but will look for your
response upon my return