Hey Bill, it’s funny bcz God blessed me with being a very optimistic person. I’ve always tried to be thankful and appreciate things, but now I am even more more thankful and appreciative for even smaller things. I’ve known even at the sadness of my initial diagnosis that God was going to use this and I’ve tried to be ready and available. The only time I feel like I falter is when I’m in pain (post biopsy, super crazy muscle pain while taking the at home targeted therapy, etc). But you know, pain does something else…it really purifies you bcz you are so laser focused on it that there’s really nothing left except you & God. I mourn for people who don’t have the Lord. Can’t fathom going through this without knowing I have a purpose and life in heaven sonmeday.