Good evening @my46th. Welcome to Connect. We are a group that believes in sharing our experiences to help others.

From reading your post, I feel pretty strongly that you are experiencing quite a bit of stress in your day. I have been there. About 6 years ago.....that was quite a problem for me especially after being diagnosed with SFN....small fiber neuropathy.

I found a great Yoga teacher and then.....she told me that she also taught MBSR, Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction. Without my mindfulness practice and the opportunity to use it daily
as the focus of my meditation. I have found that my mind behaves quite well now. I approach everyone including myself with unconditional positive regard. I offer myself compassion every day to make sure that I am also the recipient of the mindfulness benefit.

If you Google MBSR, you will see that there are free online MBSR classes. Perhaps you have read about school children with behavior issues that do a complete turnaround and begin to value themselves and their education.

Let me know if you have questions after reaching the article. Since mindfulness is mentioned quite frequently on Connect, you can put the word "mindfulness" in the Search space at the top of this screen. That will pull up every post that mentions mindfulness.

May you be free, safe and protected from inner and outer harm.
Chris