I think it’s pretty understandable that you’re having a few of those ‘moments’! A breakup with someone who’s been in your life for 10 years is traumatic, no matter who initiated it. There’s a normal grieving time for the changes you’re having to deal with. Along with that, you have this sizable list of symptoms and you feel like crud! So, I’d say trying to be all perky with that going on is rough.

This week is your doctor’s appointment. I’m really relieved that you’re going and I think you are too, right? It’s time to get some of these symptoms checked out.
If I may make a suggestion, make a copy of the list of symptoms you wrote in your first discussion posted here. https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/help-my-list-of-symptoms/

That way you won’t forget any of the key details when talking with your doctor. And also, if you have anything else you want to ask or talk about, it’s much easier to put them down on paper or in the memo area of your phone. I know my doctor appreciates when I can read right down my list. It helps to be organized when time is limited with doctor’s appointments.

I hope everything goes well for you and that you get some answers. Will you please let me know what you found out?