Dear Sue,

Thank you so much for listening and I appreciate your advice, it means a lot to me.
I do have my closest friend, who knows I’m not okay, but because I am not willing to share any details with her, each time at the end of our meeting, she always says: “you’ve got to take care of yourself, I’m always there if you need me.” But I know she has her own set of issues too, and my principal has always been “ if you have nothing positive to say, don’t say it”.
I am trying meditation, learning to let go. But it’s difficult to let it go sometimes because I felt hurt by what my husband said. I tried to convince myself that that was not the real him, it’s the cancer.
I suppose I have no choice but to let go of my negative emotions, but it’s so hard to put the smiles back on my face when he says hurtful things.
Thank you for listening, I already feel better after reading your reply. I know I’m not alone.
Cheers