@mykarma I’m glad that you felt you could vent. You have a lot on your shoulders with your fiancé and your own health. I’m hoping that your health isn’t taking a backseat to his health. Has the transplant team talked with him and set some requirements? You can’t do it all.
I’m going to ask @rosemarya to join the conversation. She had a liver transplant several years ago and will have lots to tell you. Please remember that Mayo Connect is always here, should you need to vent. I’m sure that you are doing the best that you can so don’t beat yourself up too much. Is there something you like to do that can help relax you?