Welcome @chatticathi. You have been through a lot and I can imagine you've had enough and are scared.
I moved your question to the Digestive Health group where members are talking about c difficile and fecal microbiota transplant (FMT). Members like @sandyabbey @pines @nettecook @concernedmtnmom and @wendyw can share their experiences with FMT.

In this expert blog "C. Difficile Care at Mayo Clinic" https://connect.mayoclinic.org/blog/gastroenterology-and-gi-surgery/newsfeed-post/c-difficile-care-at-mayo-clinic/ Dr. Pardi, gastroenterologist, says patients with two or more recurrences, are considered high risk and, treatment may include:
- Prolonged courses of antibiotics
- A fecal microbiota transplant that restores healthy intestinal bacteria by placing another healthy person's (donor) stool in your colon, using a scope or tube. Research has shown fecal microbiota transplant for C. diff has a success rate higher than 90 percent.
- An intravenous infusion of an antibody called bezlotoxumab may be helpful in certain situations.

Is your doctor suggesting FMT for you?