Dear @nanette2022. Your post leads me to think that the AA groups you've been in don't "click" with you. You haven't yet located your own home group where you can be yourself and provide support to others while allowing them to provide support to you. When someone tells you that you are too negative or too positive (as in telling you that you are bragging) to me this means they are taking your inventory (4th Step). Is there peer recovery coaching where you are? These are folks with many years of recovery under their belts who have been trained to take on this role and help others. This is meant to be at no cost. to you. At least it is where I live in Michigan. Recovery in depression (that's me) and alcohol (that's my family) is complicated. I hope you will keep at it and find what works best for you. Will you please come back here and keep allow all of us to provide you with support and virtual hugs (((nanette2022))).