I chose to be Myself. Dear Colleen, about a month ago I joined AA in the but of finding hope and strength, what I found instead is a continuous remembrance of my alcoholism, almost to encourage me to continue to be an alcoholic; never did I find a way to break the mold to find a positive solution. I do not want to forget but neither do I want to focus on it on a permanent basis. I have gone online to attend several meetings and NEVER DO I FIND A SOLUTION. In an other matter, people keep telling me that I need to share, when I do, I am told I focus too much on the negative, when I bring up the good points in my personality, I am told that I am bragging too much, I am confused... Today, reading an article on the web, I understand why some people chose to go in isolation, there they/I am at liberty to focus on one thing at a time. I am tired of living; I wish I could find people who would share positive matters, who would feel free to share the good and not be afraid to be who they are.