Ginger, it was scary, I now know that I DO NOT WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE, I DO NOT WANT TO DIE. My daughter told me she had been scared to contact me. I responded a long email, that I love her, asking for her forgiveness and that I hope we could be friends, mother/daughter. And really Ginger, how can I expect the world to be at peace if I cannot even get along with my daughter? I ask God for forgiveness for my behavior, and I promised Him that with His help my attitude, my behavior, my vocabulary will change... with HIS HELP.