Your posting communicates to me the sense of loss and uncertainty Ive been experiencing with my ex-wife who is now a COVID 19 long hauler.
She was diagnosed 0ct 12 and was hospitalized for a month and a half. She is now slowly showing some improvements. she can somewhat get around in a wheel chair.
We’ve had many er trips since she’s been out of the hospital 24 /7. I wish you the best but know your not alone.