good morning or early afternoon, please bare with me as my life doesnt just feel wacked it is wacked.
my house computer quit working my washer broke, i recently had 2 surgeries on my foot from mersa, i lost the rings ricky has given me, ive also lost my silver earrings, 2 of my 3 dogs recently passed, my income is the same but rickys not working and so income for the house is probably down at least 70 2 80 percent less. we have no coverage for medical bills, im pretty sure we'll loose our car because of no payments soon.
ugh! one of my usual phrases is, "expect the unexpected." lol, its easier said then done i suppose.
the above is just right off my head and then theres no tags on my truck but i got the keys yesterday for the car which is completely legal but this morning had a flat so blah blah i still feel strong and the only real issue im having, other than the above, is rickys state of mind.
he kept chuckling with disbelief at what is happening. its difficult for me not to start balling my head off. I really dont know how i dont. I think psychologically my brain is in charge and my brain knows i can ball my head off later if need be and it just isnt the time.
I could go on and on with issues of the world and i just had to catch my breath and be thankful rent n utilities is paid might loose the car but register the truck and its fine.
I need to remember Im so filled with all over the map emotions and not forget my fellow people such as all the support im getting from this site. It seems I have no time for anything but i feel ive accomplished absolutely nothing by the time i get to bed at 3 or 4 am and wake up bombarded with things to do.
other than getting the tire fixed but not until around 3 waiting on a compressor from my landlord so i can drive to les schwab and a few phone calls im not doing to much today cause i had my second shot yesterday so my arm hurts ive got a head ache and oh my gosh after putting the spare on the car last night and not getting home till almost 10 im beat.
I hate i feel like im being selfish. i ramble on n on about me. I should be asking and showing sharing grace nice conversations and so forth for you and all who have reached their hand and heart out to me.
please forgive me if i dont. life is crazy and im over whelmed. i know in the long run God knows what hes doing and he gives me strength.
so if lori and all others can be patience with me for a few days i would really appreciate it. right now this is all fresh and new and Ive been dealing with it for a month now but i hadnt realized the severity of it until i reached out for support
Im thankful for each and everyone of you. this is turmoil. Its of all of you, making it a little easier.
he wont be home for a couple of weeks, if that, so meantime im looking for a hospital bed. an electric one so hes able to come home instead of a nursing facility. who doesnt love coming home???????
i have a small house, my name is adell. im not rich and ive explained my finances but i can pay up to 100 or 150 so please keep your eyes ears n heart open for a hospital bed
like i said just bare with me while i try to grasp onto my current situation.
i have to make sure im okay first/
thanks for all the support. im sorry for all who are going through such unexpected sadness worry.
your all special and no one deserves to go through this like ever.
respectfully @pleasedontgo, adell