I have been on antidepressants since I was 11, I am now 21. Over 4 years ago, I was put on Pristiq. For some reason, my psych upped me from 50mg to 150mg plus 10mg aripiprazole in less than 6 months. I switched from that psych 6 months ago and got a new one. My new psych was trying to remove me from my state's medical marijuana program, so I ditched him and never got a new psych. I have been smoking since 14 and find it works better than any of the 5+ antidepressants I've been on. That being said, I ran out of pills and didn't even ration or split the dosage, going cold turkey from 150mg + aripiprazole. So for about 2 weeks, I've had no medicine, after being on antidepressants for essentially half my life. I have been very dizzy and tired, and it has been a struggle to feed myself. I have an increase in negative thoughts and feelings, and I am incredibly irritatable. I have no motivation. My vision is blurry and my headache is bad.
I wish I would have just said no to my old psych upping my medicine. I would see her once a month with no therapy, and every time I told her I was still sad all she would do was up the meds.
I should have rationed the pills appropriately as soon as I stopped seeing my last psych. However I didn't even know I wasn't gonna get a new one, it just kinda happened.

My message to anyone stopping any type of pills:
be smart, and do your research beforehand. I didn't care enough and now I'm suffering

Does anyone know how long I will have withdrawal effects? I figure for several months considering my medicinal history and dosage. I am unsure if I should get back on 50mg or something to make the withdrawal better, or what. I feel like I have already gotten over the peak of the withdrawal effects (off it for almost 2 weeks). I was on 150mg + aripiprazole for over 3 years.
thanks