Hello @amkect64!
I had a similar experience. I also do have temporal lobe epilepsy, having auras and déjà vu experiences since I am 12 years old (I am 50 now). As all my EEGs results were normal, it was believed that I was a person with high sensitivity (I had those experiences around 5 times a year). I have lived without knowing I had epilepsy until 2019 when I finally got the diagnosis, explaining my déjà vu experiences. Up to 2017, I have lived well and without troubles, but all of a sudden things changed. Due to a lack of diagnosis and treatment, my epilepsy has evolved. Today I know that a normal EEG does not rule out the possibility of epilepsy.
I am not a person with suicidal ideas, but some AEDs I have tried, have put me down, getting very depressed. Were you a depressed person before the medication to take today? Thank God I am back to normal since I dropped this AED and started with treatment with medical cannabis. I am very sensible to AEDs, having lots of side effects or not being able to control my seizures with them.
At that time, when I got very depressed, my doctor (general neurologist) also refuted my opinions, saying that what I was feeling was not from the medication (even though I have seen that this AED could cause depression as a side effect). I agree with @lsittll that it must be hard to be treated by a doctor that does not respect your feelings and opinions! I have lived that myself for some months, before deciding to change doctors. Today, I am being treated by an epileptologist, seeing and feeling a great difference in the approach and treatment. Have you considered seeing another doctor, especially an epileptologist?
Take care!
Satosha