I get that and I'm sorry that you are having a tough time. It definitely a scary time but you really need to know as much as you can to support your husband. Do some research so that you know what's terms mean. Even if it's scary education is power and will help you feel better. WIth cancer, as you know the feeling of powerlessness and helplessness is prevalent. You've been through this with his throat cancer. I know that you can do this again and I will be with you through this, Ok?