Wow, good for you for speaking up! Even here that is the first big step to making a change. It has been many years ago now, but I did live in a marriage where there was daily abuse. That feeling constantly of trying not set him off and is it coming now or do I have a couple hours of peace. Your writing really brought all of that back for me. I am so sorry you are going through this. You have found a good place to be. I wish I had someone giving the practical advice of just walking away for a while every time. May I ask how long you have been married? Also what is the physical status of your husband? Do you feel safe physically?