Welcome to MayoClinicConnect @nrocpop , a place where everyone tries to help each other through our difficult health journeys. We can give information, resources, and say what worked and what didn’t, but we are not doctors so we can’t diagnose or prescribe medication.
I included the link to another discussion that you might want to read through. I assure you, you are not alone!

Do you have a therapist you can talk to? Would you consider getting a therapist? Your husband may not be interested in talking to one, but it may help you immensely.
How long and how frequently does this happen?