@merpreb. Man your tough!! I needed that, thanks. Every word is right on. I don't dwell on it most of the time though, just running too hard to live before I can no longer do anything. Need to take time to do what you are saying. If I stop to do the things like exercise, etc. I start thinking. Yea, I'm lonely, sad, worried, and mad as h---. I spend my time taking care others so I don't have time to think. Your comment was good and on the spot, thank you.