Dear @daniellemarie, perhaps my greatest fear has been the thought of losing my only child.

Your loss breaks my heart and how understandable that you are feeling so alone and lost now. How could an event of such magnitude be otherwise?

Sometimes having another to be responsible for, even at the lowest times when the thought of getting out of bed sounds harder than we can do, really works to our healing.

For most of my adult life I was the primary caregiver for three extended family members. When they died, I was totally lost because they had been such a necessary focus. The blessing for me was that I still needed to go to work and meeting that responsibility was not an option.

Sometimes, I've found that people are so concerned about saying the "wrong thing" that they will avoid reaching out to someone experiencing a huge loss like the death of a loved one, a divorce, or someone critically ill.

I hope you have others nearby whom you can talk to about what you are going through. Remember you have support here on Connect and I hope you'll feel like posting whenever you like.

I'm so sorry for this terrible loss. I would be in the same boat, emotionally. How is your son doing?