Bless you....Life goes on, whether we feel we want it to or not. I can only imagine what your son (and you) are feeling and can understand the shut down. I don't know if this will be any help, but perhaps....

http://www.squidoo.com/finding-your-way-back-from-depression

Here is a small part of it that tells my story...you are not alone in hurting...there are many others, but there are things in life worth living for...your son for starters. At times like these, faith in God is exactly that...Faith. I too wonder at times, but have found, for me, without him, I simply fall apart....I hope you will take time to read and perhaps find something that may help you...it is a work in process.



One day, upon being asked, "How are you?" A woman responded, "I have been told all my life, when someone asks how you are, you should politely respond, "Fine. Thank you and you?"...or something similar as people really don't want to know your troubles. Today, I would like to have just a few moments of your time in hopes that perhaps my story will help you in some small way now or in the future."

"I am a wife, of almost 30 years, and friend, of almost 35 years, who has found herself separated from her husband and friend the past couple of months. I am a mother with 3 sons, of which 2 are in jail at the present time. One is there because of being irresponsible and not paying legal fines in a timely manner. The other is there because of being accused of molesting a 4-year-old little girl. I am the grandmother of that beautiful 4-year-old little girl who can be quite the eloquent storyteller. I am the mother-in-law to a young woman who could have unknowingly led her daughter into such an accusation because of unresolved issues herself. You see, she carries a fear that her daughters not go through what she did as she was molested by 2 different family members when she was a child herself...one of which, no one believed her when she told...the other recently confessed to the police and she would not press charges. Sadly, she has never been able to close either door and has cried upon my shoulder many times about these incidents through the years we have known each other."

"I am having a very hard time comprehending what has been set before me and have none of my own strength left. Each day, God is my strength. He picks me up, puts me on my feet and begins the process of putting one foot in front of the other so I can accomplish something besides being consumed by this darkness that seems to have taken over the life of my little family. I used to wonder what it must have been like to be Mary...I think I understand now...but with none of the glory."

"I hope, in some small way, my pain might bring you comfort in a time when you yourself may be faced with what you consider a "Bad Day". I pray you will remember God is your strength when you think you have none left. So, in answer to your question, I pose one of my own in response...

How do YOU, think I am today?"


PS For me, God is the name that represents all that is good in this world. I choose to have faith in what is good even though I have seen so much bad.

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