Tracey - I've been thinking good thoughts for you. One thing I think would give you back a feeling of independence would be to work with a low vision occupational therapist. That person is highly trained in helping people with activities of daily living and also safety, giving you back control. Your ophthalmologist can give you a referral. Please look into that. If you need some help finding one, let me know. You can also look at my http://www.maculardegenerationandme.com articles in the next few days for some other ideas. Try to turn your negative thoughts into positive or at least neutral. All this stress doesn't do your eyes any good.