What you are saying is absolutely right, it feels very hard in practice. How do you cope with bad thoughts? Its constantly in my head. Im thinking “oh I wont be able to do that this summer since Im sick”. I truly have to stop googling has its not bringing anywhere. Do you have good podcast to recommend or movie? Also, thanks a lot for sharing the article and your story – Its really great.
I have been tested for CMV, Epstein Barr and many types of flus. I do not have any swollen lymph node (confirmed on MRI). I do remember that I never had really high lymphocytes in the last 4 years, I was always in the low minimum – Maybe its an immune deficiency? Its been going on since october (on and off) so its seems strange for a virus to last that long.