Hi led. Hi marjou... agree, so good you feel like reaching out for help/comments led and nice of you to answer marjou. Older now but looking back on my life I have had many ups and downs but didn't have to deal with computers, Covid, and depression. However, I did have some of what they used to call "low self esteem" ... then at 18 left UK and my family to move to relatives I didn't know in Canada. Wherever I lived, wherever I worked, with whomever I lived I always took the back seat to them, thinking I did not measure up to their expectations (or was it my own expectations of myself?)..I wish at that time I had received some therapy but I had to get through it all by myself.
Just an old lady here but I would advise to seek some help with this from a professional, as well as the amazing people here who have gotten through or are going through a lot: there are now therapists and such "free" on line - I have a social worker/mental health worker contact me every week or two on Zoom or phone, and we are now going through "cognitive behaviour" as well as talking about other issues - its never too late or too early in life to get help. Perhaps if I had, at an earlier age, I would not have suffered so much for so long. You sound like a very bright, sensitive, person and may I wish you the very best.... now and in the future, and am sure you will hear from many members (I am relatively new here). take care.