@marjou
Hi, thanks for reaching out and your kind words. I didn't expect a quick reply
Honestly, I didn't think of a certain college to join after high school but it was my parents' dream. I really like studying medicine. But that's when it's not so stressful or time consuming to the point where I study about half a lecture a day. Where I'm supposed to finish 3 or more.
If I could go back in time, I won't join a med school, not because I don't want it, but because I don't deserve it.

I'd probably do a hoppy like making music but unfortunately due to how schoolwork is building up, it's not possible. As well as my country and probably lifestyle.
Also, here, like some other countries and regions, sometimes you don't have the right to choose and having a respectable job is the no.1 goal.

And about the comparing, my college is far from home so I don't live with my family. But I go back every 2 weeks.
And since we finished the 3rd semester I'm currently at home so I get to see how hard they, (bro.& sis.) work or at least get the job done. And I don't want to disappoint them, or my parents. Thanks again