Loula.. Your not alone Dear and your feelings are perfectly normal. There are others hear that know exactly how you feel. We’re hear for you. Without knowing the results of your consult, when first told I had stage IV NSCLC, a tumor in my head, cancer in the lymph nodes, tumors on my spine and ribs with a prognosis of 6 months to a year if I was lucky, I felt the same way you did, my wife broke down. My next reaction was anger, “who do you think your talking too, I’m not accepting that” !!! That was 19 months ago, I’m still kicking, and my last PET scan in Oct. 2020 showed I was cancer free. My oncologist calls me a miracle. Chemo was literally killing me and I refused any more after the 3rd round. I have been on straight Keytruda, no cocktail, 200mg every 21 days, since Aug, with no side effects. There are frequent new advances in treatment any many survivors out here. I know it’s hard, but keep a positive attitude Loula and never give up. How are you doing today?