@dianajane, You make such a good point of the need to periodically review end-of-life decisions. My deepest condolences on the recent loss of your beloved husband. What a difficult journey you've been on. Please be kind to yourself as you grieve.

It seems to be human nature that following the death of a loved one, we tend to berate ourselves with a lot of "if onlys, and what ifs". It has taken me months to get beyond the anger I felt about what "should have but didn't" take place following my best friend's long illness and recent death.

Your post didn't strike me as a rant at all and served to impressed the importance of periodically reviewing our end-of-life decisions. My hope is that with more time, your thoughts will dwell more on the lovely times you shared. I don't think the "missing" ever stops but time can bring us to a place of more peace and thanksgiving for that very special person's place in our lives. Thank you for your post. Thinking of you, Diana, and wishing you comfort.