I've been to urgent care in Des Moines. It was worthless. They had a terrible young Dr. there who told me to take Seraquel all day! I'm safe but in a terrible marriage. He's an x porn addict who hasn't touched me in 10 years. Now you can see the tension I'm in. He's nice but we fight all the time. I am so angry but can't afford to live alone. My siblings don't care and don't think I can move back to my home town. I'm ready to get a divorce and try though. What do I have to lose? I'm a good person but people reject me. Trying to recover from bunion surgery and need Jim's help. I also have colitis and Doctors are here! I have no one to turn to. Don't even drive in the city. Too scared. I grew up in an abusive family in a small town. My Dad was anyway. I've been trapped for 10 years. Pray someone reaches out. I feel so ready to give up. I try so hard just to be friends but dream of different men every nite. I'm his third marriage. What a joke! Maria.