Hello... I’ve always had trouble finding and keeping friends. I’ve never had a group of friends. Still today I’m 50 years old, and only have one friend. We usually text once a day, but lately we’ve been going a few days between checking in with each other. We live about 45 minutes from each other. So we don’t see each other very often.
I’m on disability and have several serious medical issues (Severe scoliosis, type 1 diabetic, major depression, ADD, sleep issues, restless legs, chronic pain and others) and had to move in with my mom after my husband of 24 years left me. I don’t feel at home with my mom. All my stuff is in a storage unit that I can’t afford. I’m very very sad, lonely and depressed. Always. I no longer find joy in the things I used to like doing, like making beaded jewelry. I’m always wishing I was no longer here. That I’m no longer a burden to anyone. I’m so tired of being alone. This is the first time I’ve ever been alone. My diet is very poor, because I never want to cook for just me.
All I’ve ever wanted was for people to like me... and yet, here I am alone and very, very lonely.

Thank-You to everyone who takes a moment out of their day to read this.

- Trish

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