I am sorry to hear that you feel so bad that you would consider ending your life that is so terribly sad to me. Physical activity just makes the pain worse for me and I can't breath and my heart rate goes off the chart. The worse is at night when I try to go to sleep. But I can't get anyone to take me seriously about it they want to give me a pill for nerve pain that doesn't work and I'm tired of it. Some of us don't like being a gynny pig for they're placebo's and cocktails just to appeise they're hunger to prove an addict is just that an addict and will do or say anything for drugs. I wouldn't wish my condition on anyone.