I meant massaging myself. I am such a fool to di massage my neck during a panic attack

I had an anxiety attack and I read you should rub your left side of the throat. I did that n now I have a clicking in my throat. My cartilage moves around and I cany even eat. I have to reposition my neck to one side and then try and swallow. I feel really low and depressed. Will this go away. I read that thyroid cartilage deviation only go way with a surgery. I really cant deal with this. I'm so tired and stressed. I feel ok some times during the day. But I have started dreading dinner. I prefer to eat alone. Cos its embarrassing. I also am super depressed because of covid. I need a miracle. I need my old life back. I was so ungrateful Jesus but now I look for one miracle from you. Please help me someone if you have a doctor recommendation or if you know what is solution. I'm not being rude but please reply only if you have a valid solution or been healed from this thyroid cartilage deviation. Clicking of the hyoid.