Mary, bless your heart. I am so sorry for your pain! I like your attitude. Sometimes when I've reached my human pain tolerance threshold, I beg the Lord to take me now, but always say right after, "Your will not mine, here am I, send me" like Isaiah 6:8. So rough yet He always gets me through! I will pray for relief from your pain and the peace of God through Christ that surpasses all human understanding (Philippians 4:7). Warmest regards, Sunnyflower