I can talk to my parents openly but it's not comfortable at all, but I am okay with it. As for physical checkup it had been a while, and I was 6 foot 1-2 and 283 pounds I believe, I probably weigh more now and my health hasn't changed much. Also I believe positive thinking is good, but I don't feel as it's enough to motivate myself to make certain changes. I appreciate all the responses it means a lot. By the way funny reason why I asked here is because my physical health is so bad that I was sweating down to my knees after sitting in my room all day with a personal A/C unit and fan. I took a shower and right after I dried myself I felt as sweaty as before, which means my body is having some issues with regulating it's temperature which may be related to weight which is sort of related to mental issues, so it took a lot to explain where it started from.