I've always been a light sleeper. I never thought anything of getting up and going back to bed. As a mother it was natural to get up with the children even at night. Older I started snoring. It was brought to my attention when on a women's conference when I woke up and everyone had removed their bedding mattresses and all and gone to sleep in the great room of the lodge. The humiliation grew as I stood in the breakfast line and heard the discussion of the horrendous noises during the night. Twenty years later I got a BiPap and a diagnosis of obstructive sleep apnea.
With anxiety undiagnosed PTSD I allowed myself to be medicated for another twenty plus years. I found Cognitive Behavioral therapy after recognising meds just were a crutch to me and became aware of myself. Recently I've tried in succession 10mg melatonin. Naterol same plus b6 and calcium now Sleep 3 10 mg melatonin and lots of herbs. I sleep more get up less but still don't feel rested. When I had a followup to my neck spasm the Dr ran many tests. My numbers are all good. My diagnosis is unremitting stress over personal issues which I' m shouldering on my own has been ongoing for almost three years. The physical side of the stress is going to take some more time but not as long as the decades that created it. I miss Qi Gong but practise mindfulness to get to sleep. I was reluctant to express myself becase I feared getting prayers goidcwishes and insipid remarks. I decided to come clean my motivation is to vent and nothing more.

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