@fiesty76 Yep do feel like a garden mama again . Since I sent the beet picture the other one is poping its head through so now I will have some vegies again like before in my own garden . On another note here yes going to the cememtary is important whether you need to get anger out or whatever . When my Dad died I was 6 but when a teenager I would go and talk to him . I still talk to his picture here and Mom it is comforting to do this . Tell Fred also too I hope she does her Mom's wishes and put her ashes where she wanted . Is she communicating now to Fred and you?