@marjou Whether or not we have depression, we have relationships. The closest relationship we have, is with ourself! While having depression is not comfortable, the fact that you recognize it is a positive step. Be gentle on yourself. The "acting as if" that @rossjt mentioned, sometimes works. But we do have to gently get on with our life. You can face off against the depression, using medications, or exercise, or therapy, or journaling [see the discussion https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/journaling-the-write-stuff-for-you/ ]. Find what works for you. Friends, family, and romantic relationships are a touchy subject, and you should not have to feel defensive. Do what you are comfortable with.

Have you thought about things you used to do that brought you pleasure? Can you start those things again? Is there something new you would like to try? Can you make steps towards that and let me know?

I have gone through depressive episodes myself, and found that exercise in fresh air, healthy food, restful sleep, all help.
Ginger