Thank you so very much for your understanding. I just wrote, and deleted, a long reply ... another long-winded response.... but I can tell you don't need a long explanation to understand how someone feels. It' a choice isn't it? I think, maybe, I do not want to lose the little control over my life that is left, I know we don't want to lose the people we love. As I have said before I so support anyone an everyone who wishes, their needs and support should be given every assistance to prolong their life or the life of a loved one. I suppose having had some very lengthy painful endings to some family members and in-laws' lives before they had a choice is in the back of my mind.
I remember filling out a questionnaire once for a Study. asking would a person take less number of years (in exchange) for good health; or a longer life with illness, suffering. I never did find out the results....... and also the question: if we could open a drawer and find in it a note stating exactly at what age and circumstances we would take our last breath on earth.... would we want to read that note? Would we want to know? I still am not sure. Food for thought? Take care.... J.S.