@januaryjane I can relate to the"unraveling". We're all different, aren't we. For me, being alone for 4 days would be just what the doctor ordered. I've gone to a Hermitage a number of times for a personal retreat. No phone, no TV. Just a one room cabin in the woods. The only other person there was a hermit/monk/priest who had become a friend. I joined him in the tiny chapel for vespers sometimes, and followed along as he read the service in Latin, and all sung in Gregorian Chant.

Loneliness, feeling abandoned, fear are feelings many of us experience. They can be really intense feelings, I know. And when we're in the middle of it, it's so hard to see any ray of hope. These and a bunch of other things have filled my therapy sessions over the past 14 years. I'm indebted to those people who listened to me and helped me, ever so slowly it seemed, find a way out of the awful pain and darkness.

Some of my therapists have told me that it would be ok to call them between appointments if I felt like I couldn't go on. I only did that a couple of times, and the one I called was my PCP. He was my first counselor, when I lived in a remote tiny town, and there were no therapists. I went and sat in his waiting room until he was done with his appointments. He was a very quiet man, which some people didn't like, but I got to know him as a quiet, but caring man. I've been blessed to have such people in my life during the past 16 years of major depression.

I'm sorry you're going through a rough patch this week. I will pray for you before I go to sleep tonight.

Jim

I am so sorry that you're going through this rough patch, but feel the same alone, depressed, at times anger and yes crying, not thinking clearly and this pandemic magnifies these feelings for me. I called my therapist because I was concerned for me. Our chat helped put things in perspective. Know you're not alone. Sending hugs.

@januaryjane

I hope you're doing ok tonight. Was there something that helped you get through the day? I work hard in the yard and gardens during the day, and that gives me something to focus on instead of the burning pain in my feet, and the mental pain. It was kinda hot today, so I had to take a lot of shade breaks to cool down. If you're up to it, let me know how your feelings of loneliness and fear are today.

Be safe, and be kind and gentle with yourself.

Jim

Hello @januaryjane,

It has been a while since you last posted on Connect. How are you doing? Have you spoken with your doctor or a counselor regarding your feelings of loneliness?

Hello @januaryjane,

It has been several months since you last posted. I was thinking about you. How you are doing? Any progress in dealing with your feelings of fear?
Will you post again with an update?