Im so sorry you are going to through the same. Ive been on and off pills for 22 years. Ive been on most of them and consider myself resistant, though I stay on them to function. They do help but tend to wear out quickly. Im glad to hear youve been in therapy, but you have to find a good fit. The cost is outrageous, I commend you for trying what you have. None of it is easy. Have you tried Emdr or Dbt therapy? You are not alone. Stay kind to yourself.