@hopeful33250 Oh yes, that is a great way to think of it! I was raised in a loving Christian family. The only down thing was my mom was Bipolor 1 or as they called it in those days manic depressive. She was ill off and on and when my dad was down milking the cows one night while we waited for him to eat supper, she did say she wanted to go down to the barn and hang herself. I was still in elementary school. Usually she would play games with me. There would be times she would be in bed for days. But, my dad was always there and I stuck with him a lot. It was hard to see her being taken to the hospital, she would fight it.

Anyway, I still feel I grew up in a loving home and remember her rocking me etc. Her death ,when I was 35 was the same way she said it would be. But and I like to say but, I still feel my bag is full. The only other thing that got me down was my older sister's first husband he did take advantage of me while I was staying with them. more than one time. My sister is 12 years older than me and did divorce him. But Yet, I love that word BUT today it doesn't seem to influence my life at all. He's is a pedofile (SP) It's him who is going to suffer. My bag was pretty low until I met the one I loved and married at age 18. But again, he died in a car accident after we were only married for 11 days with another good friend. So, my bag got pretty low. BUT I have survived!! My bag is full.

I'm leaving for Mayo tomorrow and very excited and anxious to get this over with. My faith will uphold me and I will be fine, BUT again I will miss all of you while I'm gone and not sure how I will feel when I get home. I will check for posts, but may not be able to respond. They will have me on a lot of medicine. I love you all and wish all of you the best and that your bag is full, but I know that some of you suffered. Blessing and prayers to all of you. Jeanie
Thank you Teresa your bag thing was a great idea.