I want to ask everyone a very hard question. If your spouse is uncooperative, selfish, non loving, and mentally abusive, and drinks every two hours, even in the night, why does the doctor give you medication so you can stand the pain? I told my doctor that my husband had problems and he should give him the pills. He replied that he neve thought of it that way. Yes, I should have left after a few years of his controlling behavior, but I refused to give up taking care of my grandchildren before and after school while their mothers went to work. I knew that if I left he would find me and physically drag me back home.
So I stayed until his health went bad and he died. I took Xanax to sleep for a while but went off the drug before he died because I knew my bad journey would soon be over. I have no need of medications now in my contented life. I have learned a lot in 84 years. I should write it down, I think. Dorisena