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A New Kind of Grief in These Times
Post-COVID Recovery & COVID-19 | Last Active: Apr 15, 2020 | Replies (58)Comment receiving replies
I am beyond misery! I live in the epicenter of the virus - NYC, and it is now like living in a desert. I recently had some symptoms - no fever - but my doctor
suggested I go to the hospital and get tested. I should have stayed home! They did not test me and I spent the day being exposed - given blood tests;
x-rays, and finally released at the end of the day with the doctor telling me, " You are one of the more healthy 88 yr olds I've seen in a while". What a waste!
I am mad at my doctor and mad at everyone at this point. I don't feel great,but am gradually better. Have trouble eating - things don't taste good - except my cup of decaf in the am. There is almost no take out available now - you can get a pizza, but all good restaurants are closed. I spent yesterday yelling at everyone - no deliveries, no real help. Then a miracle! with my pile up of laundry amassing, I chanced a call to a place that does wash and fold. She was
open - I blessed her and they collected two bags of my laundry - due back today. I have a home aid due today and we will change my bedding, at last!
this is a slim picture of life in NYC now - I will never believe I'm iiving through this nightmare,but there it is. I know there are people going through much worse but I have a right to complain too. I feel for all. I cried when the laundry told me they were open - shows the level of depression I'm in. More cheerful
this morning however, will try not to bitch too much. ( By the way, they didn't quite know what I had - mentioned Corona light (a beer?) or some virus.)
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Hi, Sapphira, I can only say you sound like a terrific trooper to me. Glad the doc told you about being more healthy than most your age but what a shame! it took so much trouble and time to find out you didn't have the virus...which was great news.
A very close cyber friend lives in Queens and we email daily. I have learned so much more about your incredible city through our friendship. Before, her lifestyle and mine are so different it felt like we lived on different continents. Now, it feels like we live on different planets!
She lives in a multi-family high rise bldg. The condos share a communal laundry room in the basement and individ. mail boxes are also on a separate floor. She is doing her laundry in her bathtub and waits several days to go for mail. She is finding it very difficult to make food delivery orders. All neighborhood services she's relied on are closed. She has health problems and fears leaving her condo to take the elevator; too many steps to her floor are out of the question.
She and I "quibble" over who loves "our" NY Gov best! Smiles. I grieve that all leaders across the country haven't heeded his requests, his sharing of facts and true signs of leadership from the first outbreak in NY. His daily briefings are my "boyfriend" fix each day.
You have every right to be feeling as you do! I get my Irish up too that our magnificent country was caught so ill-prepared and ill equipped and behind in confronting this virus. I also cry at the kindnesses I see, read, hear about and personally experience during these extraordinarily stressful times. That is why having this Connect safety valve is so important for so many of us.
Happy to be making another NYC cyber friend. Hope you'll post more!
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@sapphira - Venting in trying times is perfectly acceptable. It was probably Carona Light, extra cold. HaHa!! So glad the laundry service was able to give you some comfort.
I find that at times, the lack of connection can be tough to take.
Do you have family and neighbours you can connect with periodically? (At a distance of course)
Stay strong and healthy.