Jk, I’m very sorry that things are working out this way. I’m living the same type of existence. My wife see’s many patients a day and has multiple exposures. I hate the stress it puts on her knowing how awful she would feel if she brings it home. I can say that’s a stress I’ve heard over and over again from other health care workers. From my perspective I understand the risks and support her working. If she gets it and brings it home I won’t for one second be mad or upset. In a pandemic there are no perfect outcomes. I would recommend trying not to look to far ahead. Take this challenge a day at a time. It’s important to still look for the positive things going on. Today I’ve taken great joy in watching all the videos of health care workers getting vaccinated. I learned that vaccine is arriving in Rochester and I’m really excited for all the people at Mayo getting the shot. They are so deserving. I remember all there kind faces and looks of reassurance as I felt my road narrowing. I’ve use the same strategy now that I used living with chronic condition before transplant. Every morning I make a list of 5 kind things I can do for friends or family. When I go to bed I review the list. Some days it’s not quite the same, many days it’s more. But one thing it does is keep me in a good and give a sense of worth while social distancing. Everyone in our situation needs a plan to keep attitude up. Jk I wish you the best. I will share one more article that has a little more information on why we are where we are with the vaccine.
https://creakyjoints.org/living-with-arthritis/coronavirus/covid-19-vaccines/covid-19-vaccine-immunocompromised/